Hi all! Yes I'm still here, not doing very well with the whole eating thing but I'm here still. I have been trying but I can't seem to stay focused with all this damn junk in the house! I'm weak!
I'm almost done with the summer classes...well I'm taking another one but it's an art class that goes to the beach everyday. I managed to get an A in Supervision but this damn stats class is going to kill me. I made Dean's List for the spring which is a first for me!! yippy...always knew I could do it I just never cared enough when I went the first time. Good thing they don't have one for the summer because there is no way I'm getting any better than an C...or C+ in this class, but it will be done and over with and hopefully I'll never need to use it for anything because I have no idea about most I've studied.
The step daughter is still here with all her junk food...she keeps it in a cupboard but she doesn't understand that I can't even have it in the house because I will hunt it down and eat it when I'm having a craving! I've been trying really hard and I've been maintaining this week because she has been staying with her Mom. I have to get control over this I know. It's not her fault it's mine problem. But its like the rest of my life is-- spinning out of control. Most days I feel like I'm inside myself watching the world go by. When I'm with my friends at school and my pre- marriage friends I feel great, like I belong, but the only time I feel right at home is when it's just me and my daughter doing our thing. Not really a good sign for the hubby but its true. I need to make some changes, but I'm too scared to try to go off on my own.
I love to stop by and read about how you are all doing...I don't always comment but I do check in. Thanks for those of you that have reminded me to post. I really hope I can get this thing called my life under control. I really need to!!! For myself and for my daughter...I listened to my daughter today, playing with her dolls telling them she couldn't do something because of her knees!!! I felt like a dumbass! The poor girl has heard me say no so many times because of my knee that she thinks its normal!!!!! The poor kid.
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Glad to see you're posting again even if the news isn't as upbeat as it could be. Try to enjoy your summer, and the art class at the beach. We each only get so many summers.
You know what you need to do the hard part is to do it. Good luck.
What a second? You are taking an art class that goes to the beach every day? Sign me up!!! :)
I'm sorry you are fighting the junk food demons still. They suck, don't they? Keep trying to fight them off, Sherri. I know it isn't easy, especially when things are difficult, but you CAN do this. Use what your daughter said about the knees as motivation. Tell your step daughter that you really cannot have the junk food in the house. Maybe she will understand. Or tell her that she has to put it somewhere behind a lock. Whatever it takes. But do what you need to FOR YOU.
Hi Sherri,
Thanks for the advice on the NS lunches ala carte. I might do that. I like how easy it is to bring them to work, pop them in the microwave and your done. I will check out the ala carte items. You like the chocolates? I haven't made up my mind yet. I think I like them, but my mind keeps telling me , "This isn't real chocolate."
Mike
Tell your step daughter that she can only bring in the amount of food she can eat in one sitting. When my boyfriend still lived with me, that was my rule. And donuts had a whole different rule. Don't bring in any more than can be eating in 3 minutes! You can do it if you put your mind to it. Show your daughter how you can work hard enough at something and accomplish it. I know you can do it!
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