Snow finally

This has been the strangest winter here in the northeast. We have had little, almost no snow all winter. I think one storm other than this one. I always thought I hated the snow but I have really missed it this year. There is a serentity in watching ot fall for me. I guess because I drove for so many years when I was working in every kind of weather it doesn't bother me much now.

I think I did really well on the accounting test Wednesday, there was only one fill in the blank question I didn't know the answer to. But the major part of the test was a problem and it came out perfect and all the figures equaled!! yeah!!!

I have been right on the mark this week not eating things I shouldn't but I haven't had the time to spend at the gym this week that I have been. I made it to water aerobics once so far...so I'm hoping for a nice long afternoon in the gym tomorrow. Maybe alittle swimming and an elliptical jog!

I have been really at odds here at home since the whole comment from my husband that I mentioned last time. It seems like not only does he not understand me or the lifestyle I'm trying to lead we also have nothing in common. Its getting worse and worse all the time. Our daughter is the only things we talk about that doesn't involve running the house or paying a bill. I never planned to spend my life like this. I know this is something that should have come up when we were dating...but its a long story...we only dated a short time before we got married. At the time it seemed like the best idea for both of us but now even he feels this weirdness between us. We are on different paths trying to make them merge through the canyon between them. I know marriage is hard but is it really suppose to be this hard?? I really wonder sometimes. I don't want to give up on it, I want to give it every chance possible but how long do I stay feeling the way I do? I say it that way because he won't walk away...he tried so hard with his first marriage he let his exwife live in the house and date her new boyfriend while he was trying to win her back!! What do you do with that...UGH!
I feel alone even when he's here. I try to talk to him about things I have learned at school or something that interests me and he looks like I'm pulling his fingernails out with a pair of pliers. I just don't want to feel like that anymore, but I don't want to be a failure either! UGH!!!!!
I'm writing all this because it makes this whole process that much harder when you don't feel the support you are craving from the one person that should be your rock. Sometimes I feel like I get more support from my old friends than I do from my husband...I may not understand how a marriage is suppose to work in alot of ways but I do know that shouldn't be.