Sundays are great for taking a little time for yourself to think, and in my case, plan. While Amy was watching a movie I took the time to fill out my day planner for the semester so its already for adding special projects and appointments. I also took the time to fill in the same goals I have listed on my NS profile. I really want to be reminded on a daily basis how I am doing. I have also scheduled in "my time"---afternoons at the college gym. I think along with the water aerobics I will be able to get in plenty of activity to meet my goals. I have also made a place to put my weekly weigh -in as another reminder...YOU WOULD THINK DRAGGING MY FAT ASS ACROSS CAMPUS WOULD BE ENOUGH OF A REMINDER!!!! I just think this will be the extra thing I need to walk away from the vending machines and stick to plan.
I love depending on my NS friends and yahoo 100% challenge friends to keep me from eating but once school starts back up I won't have the time to chat very often so I need to find some self motivation. I will try to keep blogging because I feel it helps me talk out the problems I'm encountering. I do look forward to the comments and leaving them for others. It is very comforting to know you aren't alone on this long journey.
I was reading Bob's blog yesterday and I just got thinking about all he said. To me this time is different because I want to do this for me first then for my family. I hate not being able to wear sexy little outfits or buying sexy shoes(they aren't as pretty in wide). I want the energy back that I once had...actually the love of life that I used to have! I don't want my daughter thinking that this is how a person should be just because I was. I want her to be proud of herself and be happy and active!
I'm looking forward to my classes and the chance that one of my professors is offering. Instead of a long drawn out paper or project our teacher is offering a chance become involved in the community, to help others through volunteer work. We can choose the place and the time and he says how many hours we need to do to complete the requirements. I have missed being involved like I was before I moved to the end of the earth. I raised money and walk for several charities a year, I worked with the youth group at my church, and worked with a local homeless shelter that provided essentials for people trying to get back on their feet. I really enjoyed this stuff ...I think its a journey back to myself. The things I "used" to be and do. In a way my marriage has given me things but in other ways its been a slow chipping away of the person I liked being. Maybe I was just single way to long!
Anyway...hoping that the scale is as good to me tomorrow as it was this morning! 299/279?/159 I know I have been here along time to only be at the 20lb mark but to me its a big part of my refocusing, A MAJOR HURDLE CROSSED!!!
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