I am so totally in a weird place. I so want to lose weight this time and really stick to it, but I'm getting absolutely no support here at home. I am, from my friends and that adds a whole new dimension to the problem. I 'm starting to resent my family for not really caring, or maybe its more like a lack of saying they care. I have tried many times in the past and ended up falling off the wagon so maybe they think I will fail again so why get their hopes up?? Whatever it is I don't know what I should do. Do I say something to them and hear the truth about how they feel or just keep doing this alone.
I have been trying so hard this time and my husband knows it! Yet tonight he brings home my favorite ice cream to have while we watch a movie!! I got really mad and accused him of trying to keep me fat so I wouldn't leave him. Of course this didn't go over well as that very thing has happened to him once already with his ex. Of course I didn't mean it ...I think anyway. I want my daughter to have both her parents but if one of us can't even show respect for the other and their wishes..what kind of an example is that for her.
I've been very torn about this for awhile. I have talked about it with my husband but he has no time to really talk about this in depth right now so I will wait.
I thank God that through all this I have found someone I can really talk to and I think this person feels as comfortable talking to me. We joke about lots of things that maybe we shouldn't but for me its been my lifeline and helped me stay on track and in the program! I would love to thank this person from the bottom of my heart for reminding me I have to do this for myself then for all the other reasons like my daughter. Without someone that listens and cares this old life is a long hard road. I really hope I can get this through my husbands head before its to late. Sooner or later I'm going to stop trying to fit it all together.
2 comments:
I can imagine that your comment to your husband did not go over very well. But there is part of me that wants to tell you to tell your husband of yours to stick that ice cream where the sun don't shine! :) He needs to help you through this. If anyone, he should understand that because of what happened before.
I think its great that you have someone to talk to about all of this. We all need to have someone or something to help us along this path. Its a little too difficult to do alone.
My husband & I had quite a few challenges to get by during my first few months on NS. The biggest one was our love of beer & wine. I don't have a problem walking away from a bowl of ice cream, but when I try to cut back the evening glasses of wine to just the weekends - that hits a nerve with hubby when he is looking for a drinking buddy. It is still a work in progress, but we are getting there.
Stay strong - he will be happy with the results after a few months on the program. I know my DH is!
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